Must Sad or Happy

I don't know I must Sad or Happy now?

Honestly,
I can't lost my feel to you...
How much I try to lost it...
Sorry If my feel disturb our Friendship...
I'll try to cover it from you, although is hard for me...
Just it can I do for you...

Thanks for now, we can still be a friend...
But that feeling is so disturb me..
I can't do anything normally in front of you...
I can't be a good friend anymore as previously...

Sorry,
But I won't lost my feel to you...
I know it's so selfish, but It's real...
For now your forgiveness it's very sufficient for me..
I know, I can hope no more...
Let it go like a wind, that never know where's the end..

That's only merely story about a "New Friendship"